My anxiety is coming back.
That visit from B has really shaken me up. I know I’ll never find anyone like him. And I know he will never like me.
Plus school is starting and I have to move, and apply for residency and pay bills and work and plan events for the semester. I haven’t worked out in over a week and I just feel fat, and hot, and tired and sick all the time.
Is it January yet so I can turn 21 then go to England? B visiting was the only thing I was looking forward to and now that its over and done and messed with me, I can’t seem to look forward to anything.
I can’t be alone right now though. I need to be around people, or god knows what I’ll do.